Wednesday, September 23, 2015

How it all began...

...and where I am today.

I got noticed for epilepsy and a mental disability when I was 2 years old. 

I went through childhood with an articulate voice and could describe what people felt like, and had medicine through childhood. Then at 20 years old, I went to a school that helped people to live independently. I was there for 2-4 years. I lived in apartments for a few years, then eventually started at The Center For Independent Futures. I was 43-44 years old then. 

Between 44-45 years old my behavior started changing on me. I was getting scared to go places, and was acting in other crazy ways. So I went to a private doctor to check out my meds. He said my meds were off balance and needed to get them sorted out. 

So we had me go through surgery [which was scary], to put in a Vagus Nerve Stimulator (VNS) inside of me. It is near my heart. I have been behaving better since I had it. My meds have been decreased a few times also. 

At age 46: I am behaving a lot better and feel more myself since I had the VNS. I am glad we did the surgery.

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Getting out of depression

       Depression is a serious negative way of  thinking and feeling. People can get depressed in different ways. Examples are being more tired, being sad, not as hungry, feeling lonely, suicidal, having trouble getting out of bed in the morning or not making plans for the day. So this is a serious issue that requires more effort and work.

       If you meet a troubled person who is also depressed it is important to help them focus on their wants so you can get an idea of their strengths, abilities and thoughts on living. For example: I like to chat when I become depressed because it gets my thoughts out and makes me more energetic. So guiding these people to do things related to their strengths can help them enjoy life and move out of depression. It can be stressful to encourage and guide others because it takes more time, and they do not always listen. But it is important for them to have this supportive help so they can have a fulfilling life.

Friday, September 4, 2015

Education Support

Now that school has come, it is time for homework. Lately it seems more school kids may have too much homework. It can be hard for kids in regular school to tell that they have too much homework. So imagine how hard it is for troubled students to speak up when they get too much homework.

When you have to put troubled people in special classes, it can be hard to find the correct help. Also we need to help them at home. It is easy to keep reminding them to work on their hard problems, but after doing that for awhile, it can cause them to get worried and depressed.

When it comes to troubled students it takes effort and reinforcement. Also, we as parents have to accept the level they are at because that is how God gave them to you. When we help troubled students, we need to study their abilities, and qualities so when they mention their troubles; we need to empathize and encourage them to realize the students have abilities and qualities they can use while handling their troubles. Also it takes a lot of reinforcing the students to use their abilities and qualities because those abilities and qualities are the key to getting them motivated.                                                                                      

I can't imagine how hard it is disciplining, encouraging, and reinforcing your troubled child to go forward in life with their abilities. We can't blame the stress as a reason to give up. We can always get a new car but we can't bring back a life. Encouraging them helps them have a fulfilling life.                            

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Ending Summer

Summer went by fast.

School is coming back.

This is a time to do important last minute stuff with your friends and family. Then also gathering school supplies together. Be sure you know the location of where your school is and that you register early so you can get in more likely. Also this is the time in your life to explore what you want in life, such as where you want to go to school, or what down the road you want to aim for yourself. 

I went to a program called P.A.C.E. at 20 yrs old. P.A.C.E. is a school to train independent living skills, to people with special needs. Until I went to P.A.C.E., I always talked in an articulate way, but never knew why. I am often able to express my feelings and understand why others feel the way they do. P.A.C.E. showed me I am like that because I was trying to ask or say “How can I express myself?” 

P.A.C.E. taught me that before I do anything, I focus too much on the possible consequences of things. I become too scared to express my ideas because I am afraid of how people might react.  Which causes me to over-think and miss out on doing activities. Also I do not understand when I can express myself. For example I do not understand when is a good time to ask someone if they want to get together with me.

But nobody ever said life was easy!

Until next time,

Alyssa :-)

Friday, July 3, 2015


Well, Independence Day is coming, and I am learning about more experiences.

One being I got a new computer. I grew up without a computer, so this is a challenge for me. Yet the nice thing is, I can be more able to learn and use it more on my own. Independence is a valuable tool, so we should use as much as we can for having a safe life.

So on independence day, we are celebrating for everyone who fought for our country and ourselves. It is easy to take things for granted, but sometimes we have to stop and enjoy what we have because we live only once. Life is all about being independent, and on the Fourth of July is how we celebrate having independence in our lives.

I am watching the fire works. The colors make me laugh with joy.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Graduation Time

Well now graduation time for 2014 is here, and we can make plans around the weather it seems. 
I know that it is an exciting time, because graduates can make future plans. When doing future plans, it means thinking about what we want to have in life. One important thing is finding about where a high school graduate wants to go to school. They need to research about the school, and figure out if it is what they are hoping for and decide if they want to go to the school. 
Then also part of graduation is knowing what to study. it should be a decision related to the graduates interests. When making decisions, it can seem more exciting at times then we think. We have to look at alot of ifs while making decisions. It is also where are we going to want to live, as well as being able to get around the neighborhood. Also is it a safe neighborhood is important. That is because some places can be more dangerous then others. 

Until next time...

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Moving On

I, Alyssa Ruzzin, have been sharing experiences with you about my life. 

Now I feel it is time to ask other people to share their stories also. 

Because I am only 1 person, I can not share all the other kind of stories there are out there. I believe the more stories we share, the better we will be at getting people to realize that having a disability is important to take care of, and that they are not all fun and games. Often we get seen as just wanting attention, but we are not. That is what rattles the boat. in today's society being disciplined is not used as much. 

So we need to encourage people to be more aware. I hope to get more people involved because that will open a road up to doing more to support epilepsy. With more support, hopefully we can have more healthy people.

Then they can pass on more stories towards handling epilepsy.

Until next time…